picking up where you left off

i've been thinking a lot about this lately, and until now i haven't really decided. is it really possible to pick up things where you left off? as if you never left, like nothing hapened?

i really thought this was entirely possible. it's all about willpower: condition the mind that things are just like before and that's how they will be. and for some time, that's what i have been doing. at least initially. people around you may change, but if you set your mind into thinking that "No, things will just remain the way they were. Pick up where you left off!", they will realize that as well, and begin to act accordingly. but humans are dynamic. although the environment plays a huge part in how one behaves, it's not the end-all of things. you have to consider a lot of other factors. genetics, attitudes, past experiences, these also all play integral roles.

recent circumstances surrounding my professional life has brought me into thinking about these things. and now i have finally come to a decision: everything changes. whilst it is possible to reach a certain point where things are as normal as they can be, bottom line: nothing stays the same. trust will always be an issue, loyalties can get divided, the works. like what i've been telling my friends (my real, true, genuine, legitimate, you-get-the-point friends), i've never known people who can be so vicious. super friendly in your face, then stabbing you in the back the moment they get the chance. but it's no biggie, i've already been through hell and back (as my friends - yes, the same set i just mentioned - can attest). if i was able to survive that, i can weather through this storm easily. JC's there to help me, too.

with respect comes a certain amount of fear.

hahahaha! no wonder i can't be touched.

later.

catching up

dear blog,

how's it going? first off, i would like to apologise for neglecting you. it's been over a month since i last wrote something here. not that i havent got any news to share; on the contrary, a lot of things have been going on in my life over the past couple of months.

allow me to post here the things i need to blog:

- hula moments
- issues issues issues
- depression - food
- road trip!

later.

i wonder how valid and reliable this test is?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

birthday shmirtday

so i just turned 25 last saturday. hooray! i am now a quarter of a century old. fortunately for me, my mid-life crisis is pretty much over. it began about a couple of months before my actual birthday. it made me do a lot of thinking: "oh my god! i am turning 25 and what have i accomplished so far? nothing!" or something to that effect. seriously, though, i was really depressed about turning 25. i am not one to normally compare myself to others (especially to my friends), but the fact that a lot of them are now doctors (or literally one step behind becoming full-fledged ones), or successful university instructors, masteral students abroad, etc... come on, won't you feel depressed too? especially in my case, the one-with-all-the-potential. i guess for some time now, that's all i have ever been. full of potential, but no realizations happening. which is also probably one of the reasons why my mom is sooo frustrated with me, she knows how great i can be (and this is without bias, even if she is my mother), and yet it seems like i am not really doing anything about it.

the sad thing is, she's probably right.

but enough of that. the important thing is what you do with the NOW. so what if you've done all these great things before? it's all in the past. as richard of ally mcbeal would say, "bygones!" high time for me to make my own accomplishments. again. get started on tomorrow!

"Some people never get over their past accomplishments. Even worse are the people who exaggerate what they have done. For years, I kept a sign on my desk that helped me maintain the right perspective concerning yesterday. It simply said: YESTERDAY ENDED LAST NIGHT." - John Maxwell

saturday night plans

despite the fact that a lot of shitty things have been going on in my life recently, i can always look forward to weekends. especially THIS weekend. truth be told, i have no specific plans yet, although i have received several invites as of this writing. let's see: there's this show somewhere in qc where a friend of a friend shall be performing, and it might be worth checking out. in makati, there is the spanish film festival which i have been dying to see (there are a couple of flicks showing tonight, even. if only i have someone to watch it with...). and, there's like a huge party in one bar/club, details are yet to be fully revealed to me soon. but it looks promising, i heard from another friend that it has been selling like hotcakes already (it referring to tickets - yeah right!).

some college friends have texted me and even sent me a message in friendster, asking me to pay them a visit in manila. sounds pretty good for me too, since these are really good friends of mine and i havent seen them for quite some time. now would be a great opportunity to catch up, since all of them are now back together in manila.

i could also catch up with some old friends over coffee. it's all good, but i am looking forward to doing something exciting. like what i have been telling my colleagues, my energy levels have been so high i can no longer contain myself. if i dont release some of this i might end up having a nervous disorder of some sort! does tourette syndrom sound familiar? hehehe, talk about applying what i have been reading lately in real life (which i will explain more in detail once i'm done reading it).

gotta end this now, i guess. my friend patty is looking forward to watching how "Bituing Walang Ningning" ends. as if we don't know, right? good triumphs over evil! that, plus the fact that cleng is also ready to go home and catch some zzzs before getting some tonight. bwahahahahaha!

later.