they should've named it "The Joker"

all these summer movies (it is summer in the states, after all) are giving me a celluloid kind of high. considering i have missed my chance of watching some good ones (get smart, for one), the recent ones i did get a chance to see are amazing. mamma mia, of course, is one of my favorites. but this latest one is so amazing, i have already seen it TWICE. one day after the other. you read right = twice. clearly, the dark knight is one of the best superhero movies ever made.

all that buzz about heath ledger getting a posthumous oscar has merit after all. he was that good. dont get me wrong, jack nicholson is a super talented actor. he did justice with his joker. but with heath? his joker is so twisted, so demented, you would think that he was born to do this role, and ONLY this role.

fast forward to february 2010: yes, heath won the Oscar posthumously. hahahaha!

lss for today

Beautiful Things
Tiesto

Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second, then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name?
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.
Look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
What's done is done, this life has got its hold on me.
Just let it go, what now can never be.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautful things.
I forgot that I might need,
to find out what life could bring.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got its hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

So many beautful things
So many beautful things

Now what do I do?
can I change my mind?
did I think things through?

It was once my life - it was my life at one time.

respite

i need a break. once again, i'm in a rut. i hope two days off from work will do the trick. the question is, when? this week is obviously out of the question, as i only have two days left before the week ends. perhaps next week? i can, but there lies the next question: where? or even, what? what do i do when i take a day off? get a massage? catch up on my reading and correspondence? i've got tons of books waiting to be devoured, from the classics to the less-popular authors. go to some far-flung province, hide away in a resort by myself? so not me, but i've always wanted to do that. hmm... get laid? no problems there, hahaha! i was thinking that getting laid would make me energized again, but somehow it didnt do the trick.

i need to get involved in something else. organise an event? which reminds me, there's this super long-overdue team building for the team. talk about a logistic nightmare: 16 pax spread over varying shifts. sounds fun, eh? note to self: start planning for it! take up a course, any course? only if my mom or sister would be paying for it. hehehe.

how about going out? oh, that's right: i've been doing that a lot lately. again! nothing seems to work, sigh.

density

i have to admit, i am somewhat dense. especially when it comes to people's perception of me. not that i really care about what other people think, but sometimes i get still get surprised by it. i wouldnt really know if someone likes me (and not in the romantic sense, mind you) or not unless he/she tells me directly. unless my friends point out the signs, i'll remain obtuse. seriously.

the reason i am writing about it now is because lately i realized that i ain't no mr. personality after all. then again, i would never be mr. personality, for i am definitely not ugly. hahaha!

going back, it's just funny how people go through all the trouble of just making you feel that they dont like you. if it were me, i'd say let's just take it outside. but i know that would never happen.

okay, given the fact that i have detractors (or dementors) of sorts, i would just like to request for one thing: make them smarter? please. i told my dear friend about my predicament, and she just said, "please. dont they know we eat stuff like this for breakfast? give us something more difficult."

it gets pretty tiring, true. but hey, i've been here for a long time. and i'm still here. ha.

will monday night be a regular thing?

last week a friend from work suggested that we go out after work on monday. so that's what we did. and we had lots of fun! great crowd, great beer, great music! loves it!