31 December 2007

he thinks this year will be it.

2008 will be the year where he chooses his fate. he has been at a crossroads for the longest time - he has already become comfortable fence-sitting. no longer, he thinks. it is about time that he starts living the life he is meant to live. he is of age, after all.

ever since he was a child, he was told that he is destined for greatness. he believed it; he knows it deep in his heart that he is meant for greater things. he knows that a lot of people would come to know him - not only will he be famous, he will become successful (read: rich) as well. he will probably become the most successful person in his family (at least in his generation).

he must decide which path to take. he knows that he is good at a lot of things. he is a modern-day Renaissance man: from the arts to the sciences, he can become very good at what he does, especially if he sets his mind into it. he knows that realizing your destiny/potential does not mean letting go of the other things that you enjoy doing; however it means you have to focus. he will have to make a lot of adjustments in order to take the plunge. from cutting back on night-outs, to reading more books, to getting back into sports - he knows what it takes.

he hopes all his friends will support him in this endeavour. here's to biting the bullet.

cheers!

27 December 2007

merienda buffets

i realized: this last quarter of the year, merienda buffets have become significant in my life.


it all started when my friends and i discovered the merienda buffet here in our very own building. for less than 80 bucks, you can have puto, dinuguan, pancit, various kakanin, arroz caldo, etc. to your tummy's content. with food being the universal people-bonder (that's not even a word!), we shared a lot over these merienda buffet sessions: from personal things like what's going on in our families, to stuff at work like movements and changes. conversations like: how my mom has plans of staying in the states for good, my friend's breakup, talks of hitting it big in the casino (hehehe), staffing issues (no, we do not talk about work all the time), and a whole lot more. apparently, it is not only us who proceed to the merienda buffet whenever we want to bust our guts. as i have recently discovered, other teams are into it too. my new team had a birthday celebration of sorts in the same spot. it was a very festive and yet economical way of celebrating. kudos!


earlier i had another merienda buffet moment, this time it is with someone and someplace new. apparently, masas in greenbelt 2 has its own version of the buffet. the food being served are very similar, although here they have halu-halo (which i dont think they have here in our building). upon hearing the invite, i decided to drop everything here at work and troop to greenbelt to meet up. before you say, "work abandonment!", might i remind you that i am on leave today?! good.


anyway, it was a sound decision on my part to have met up. as of this writing, i am still full! personally, i liked the dinuguan here in our building better, but their pancit is yummy. the sago't gulaman needs a little more syrup, but i guess that's just my sweet tooth talking. anyway, enough about the food. let me tell you what happened during our stay in masas. our conversation was very interesting: esoteric, if i may say so. we talked about card reading, past lives, meditating, visualizing, the secret, all that stuff. it was great finding someone who is into these kinds of things. i learned a lot of new things during my hour-long stay. for instance, in terms of getting what you want, you have to be very specific. you should visualize it exactly as you would like it to happen. allow me to cite an example: say you would like to have P50,000 in savings by end of march 2008. how would you like to receive this? you have to be very specific - is it in the form of a check being handed to you? or a direct deposit in your bank account? visualizing helps in obtaining what you want, according to my friend.

of course, i tell my friend that this should be taken with a grain of salt. while i am all for using your mind, tapping into it and maximizing its use, i still belive that we should start acting to make things happen. you cannot merely think yourself into a way of becoming/being (hope that made sense). if there is something you want to achieve, you work for it. sitting down and visualizing would help a lot, true, but so would physical activity.

anyway, at the very least, i had a wonderful time. it is very refreshing to meet up and have nice, long conversations with someone interesting. it doesn't hurt that you're both hot either! hehehehe. greenbelt 2 in the afternoon has a different vibe - while you have your usual yuppies dressed in corporate chic, you also have other people living nearby hanging out for snacks, wearing slippers and shorts. it's not as stuffy and elitist as greenbelt evenings. but it's all good, it never bothered me anyway. meaning, i dont give a rat's ass if i hang out there looking like shit.

on our next meetup (i wouldnt like to call it a date), i would like to head over to our alma mater for some classic street food - isaw, fishballs, etc. that, or in Chocolate Kiss. maybe even both.

later.

26 December 2007

the tease is now being teased

  • i know, i know. i'm such a tease.
  • unconsciously. sometimes it isn't even my intention of doing so.
  • i can't help it if i'm charming (hehehehe!)
  • what's challenging is once you've met your match
  • all defences are down
  • and suddenly you get lost
  • does this person like me or am i just being teased?
  • it's hard to tell, really
  • it can get frustrating.
  • maybe i should just take it as it is.
  • that's what i'll tell others who might be in the same spot.
  • oh well...

  • later.

Christmas Day

this year, Christmas for me was spent at home.

traditionally, my friends (my three best buds) and i would be trooping to the mall by Christmas afternoon. we would then watch a movie to show our support for the Philippine movie industry. to be honest, it is more of the reason that there aren't any other movies being shown, but my way of looking at it makes us look good. hehehe. anyhow, after maybe 4-5 years of having done this, it didn't push through this year. =( my friend rang me up shortly after lunch yesterday, and i asked him if the tradition will continue as normal. he said it is highly unlikely, as there are no movies worth watching anyway. come to think of it, i guess he's right. every year we would do the same thing - hit the mall, watch a movie, and curse each other for having been dragged out of our beds to watch that crappy flick. and yet we still do it, which is the main point. i kinda felt sad upon hearing that we wouldn't be watching at all. a little part of me suddenly thought that we weren't doing it because we have kinda grown apart. or, to be more specific, i have grown apart from them, as they still hang out a lot of times. you see, our night-outs would always be last-minute: a typical text would be something like, "dude, let's watch a movie and get a nightcap afterwards. pick you up in ten." and, most of the time, i couldn't make it. after all, i work in makati, i end up staying after shift just to finish work, and even when i do get the chance to come home early, i feel so pooped i wouldn't want to go out anymore. on weekends, where i got no work, i have made a prior commitment to go out with other friends. and this would be (again) in makati, if not in taguig. so i am always not around, and i think that they have gotten used to it already. i resolve to change that, especially now that the new year is approaching. i need to reconnect - with old friends, old skills/talents, etc.

at the very least, my Christmas was very lazy and relaxing. i finally caught up with my sleep debt, and man did it feel good! i watched cartoons (pokemon, yay!), played video games, read some chapters from the book which i could never seem to finish (i'm sorry, Christina Pantoja-Hidalgo - it isn't your fault, trust me), spent time with my nephew while he opened the gifts he received (a lot!), and ate ham. A lot of ham. Hehehe. My Christmas wouldn't be the same without ham. =)

How Lovely Is Your Dwelling Place

REFRAIN:
How lovely is Your dwelling place
O Lord, mighty God, Lord of all.

Even the lowly sparrow finds a home for her brood,
and the swallow, a nest for herself
where she may lay her young
in Your altars, my King and my God. (REFRAIN)

Blessed are they whose dwelling is Your own, Lord of peace.
Blest are they refreshed by springs and by rain
when dryness daunts and scathes.
Behold my Shield, my King and my God. (REFRAIN)

I would forsake a thousand other days anywhere
if I could spend one day in Your courts,
belong to You alone. My strength are You alone,
my Glory, my King and my God. (REFRAIN)

CODA:
How lovely, Your dwelling place
O, Lord, mighty God, Lord of all.

17 December 2007

Home of Free Checking

who would have thought that my weekend would have turned out this way?

our meeting up that night was totally unexpected. you came from work, i came from someplace else. at the back of my head, i was thinking: flaker, this definitely wouldn't happen tonight. but dont get me wrong: i won't blame you - after all, i too would be having second thoughts about going out after spending a long, tiring day at work. but lo and behold, you agreed to meet up. thank god you did.

until now, i am amazed at how we connected at so many levels. same interests, same background. it really helps a lot that we have a lot in common. proximity, familiarity, similarity. intro to psych lessons suddenly pop in my head. getting to know more about someone is an exciting endeavour. i look forward to learning bits and pieces about you everyday. and, among other things, i take this as an opportunity to take things slow. take things as they come. it's ok not to expect anything. the important thing is to appreciate the now.

i am exhausted. from work, from simbang gabi, from other responsiblities at home. but i am not complaining. instead, i will just write.

later.
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