picking up where you left off

i've been thinking a lot about this lately, and until now i haven't really decided. is it really possible to pick up things where you left off? as if you never left, like nothing hapened?

i really thought this was entirely possible. it's all about willpower: condition the mind that things are just like before and that's how they will be. and for some time, that's what i have been doing. at least initially. people around you may change, but if you set your mind into thinking that "No, things will just remain the way they were. Pick up where you left off!", they will realize that as well, and begin to act accordingly. but humans are dynamic. although the environment plays a huge part in how one behaves, it's not the end-all of things. you have to consider a lot of other factors. genetics, attitudes, past experiences, these also all play integral roles.

recent circumstances surrounding my professional life has brought me into thinking about these things. and now i have finally come to a decision: everything changes. whilst it is possible to reach a certain point where things are as normal as they can be, bottom line: nothing stays the same. trust will always be an issue, loyalties can get divided, the works. like what i've been telling my friends (my real, true, genuine, legitimate, you-get-the-point friends), i've never known people who can be so vicious. super friendly in your face, then stabbing you in the back the moment they get the chance. but it's no biggie, i've already been through hell and back (as my friends - yes, the same set i just mentioned - can attest). if i was able to survive that, i can weather through this storm easily. JC's there to help me, too.

with respect comes a certain amount of fear.

hahahaha! no wonder i can't be touched.

later.